Milf "ha ha bus"

I have curly hair. Not cool curly hair, i have shitty useless curly hair (ok HAD shitty useless curly hair). I've always hated my mop.  When i tried growing it out when i was a metal head teenager it grew wide not long, when i was heavy into punk rock when i was a little older i had a shitty curly mohawk. By the time i had reached my early twenties i had given up on it. I started shaving my head. I've had brief relapses when I've given my stupid hair another chance only to regret it and shave it again. It wasn't a popular hairstyle in the early nineties, in fact it was widely interpreted as a racist "skinhead" badge. And quite often i was accused of being one of those douche bags.
I loved the Buffalo indie band #milf. I had their seven inch singles and this their debut album of loud, catchy shoegaze rock was in heavy rotation on my stereo and i put their songs on plenty of mix tapes. They were playing a gig at the now defunct Asbury Alley and i was pretty amped to go. It was not a heavily attended show but i stood front and center when they performed so the music would overwhelm me. Their singer/guitarist walked off the stage during their set and stood in front of me shouting the lyics in my face. OI was totally confused, it really felt aggressive and i didnt understand why he had done this. I kind of just stood there shifting my weight from foot to foot waiting for a cue as to how i was supposed to respond. He continued shouting what i assume were lyrics at me and hitting me with spittle. Eventually he walked back on stage and the band abruptly finished their set.  It should be noted that the singer was a black guy. I felt distressed about what had just happened so i approached the drummer who was still packing his lit and asked what was up and he told me to "get lost". Well it had turned out someone had written some racist graffiti in the bathroom about the band and given my affinity for shorn follicles they had assumed i was the bigoted dickbag. It had kind of pissed me off that they had made that assumption and i wrote a scathing review of the event in a local 'zine. I just realised that was some white privilege shit on my part. Now I'm bummed. Stupid hair.