Agnostic Front "victim in pain"

One of the most taste defining releases of my young music obsessing life was a free cassette sampler i got from the record label Combat/Combat Core records.  The cassette's A-side was from the label's tjrash metal roster and introduced me to a ton of cool bands.  The B-side was hardcore and crossover bands which was an exciting new take on the metal i was listening to up to this point.  I believe i eventually purchased albums by every band on this tape (well done Combat...well done indeed). The first thing i bought that got me super excited was #agnosticfront "victim in pain". It sounded nothing lile the acrobatic thrash metal i had adored up to this point, it was raw and simple and dangerous. The band performed like they were threatening me.  It was a "join us or get stomped" creed and i wanted in.  My old hesher friends weren't into this stuff but the punk rock kids i started skateboarding with totally dug it.  Looking back i realise i was a kind of "crossover" kid.  I still loved my metal and the aesthic of nihilistic thrash but also loved the heart and soul of punk and early hardcore.  I had friends in both camps but those friends were mutually exclusive of each other.  I didn't hang with all of them at any given time. While i enjoyed some of the cloak and dagger of juggling groups if friends and it was like living a split personality were i got to shift gears and explore different aspects of myself i didnt fully appreciate it because i was a young and dumb teenager.  The band just played at a small club here in Buffalo. I didnt get to go, i had already attended three concerts over the previous two weeks and couldnt fit another tuesday show into my life.  While thinking about going i realised the band was still involved in my life as duplicity.  My seperate life of doom metal, punk and rock shows from my dad life.  I really hope i can someday fold these two aspects together though.  But really what kid wants to bring his dad to a show? Coolness suicide. I hope it reconciles though, it'd warm my heart to see these boys immersed in music. Paradoxically I'd love it to be music that wants them to tell me to fuck off.